Finally! The Right Direction!

Hello Avid Readers!

I finally went in the right direction again! I weighed in this morning at 468.0 pounds, that is down 1.2 pounds! I know it's not a lot and I have a long way to go yet. I got in 4.59 miles and 115 minutes of exercise this past week. I did no exercise over the weekend, but, back at it today! I was awake fro 6am on Friday until 1:30pm on Saturday...then I slept...basically until Sunday. Sunday is football. I live and breath football during the season. So no exercise yesterday. :-(

I wish that I could lose weight faster, but, I keep telling myself they say the slow weight loss is the permanent weight loss. So if I keep holding on to that, then I can continue to do this slowly. That said I wish I was 180 pounds and then I could just maintain instead of trying to lose. I want to know why it is so much easier to gain the weight then to lose it? I mean if I could lose it as easily as I could gain it, it would take no time and I would be 180!

I had kind of a weird week last week. My Monday through Thursday was pretty normal, but, my weekend was not a normal weekend. Friday, I got up at 6am, worked my day, then off to ChAdam Games to work the Pre-release of the new Magic: the Gathering set: Innistrad. That started at 12:01am on Saturday. Of course I worked from 4:30pm Friday until 6:45am Saturday. Then a road trip to Stevens Point for a couple classes for my certification for being a CCD teacher. That went from 8am until noon. Then the trip home a little lunch and zonk time. I slept from 1:30pm until 9:00pm. Then back to bed at 11:00pm and got up at 9:30 Sunday morning. I guess I really needed the sleep. Then Sunday a couple football games and a nice dinner with the family. Watched a Movie and that was Sunday.

Now BACK ON THE HORSE! I just purchased a heavy bag to work on my arm and shoulder strength. I am looking for a good, but, cheap Treadmill for use during the winter and possibly a cheap Elliptical. Anybody that might have any leads on this please let me know at chad180knight@gmail.com.

Talk to you all next week.

Chad180

Rough Week, New Shoes!

Ok, let's start with numbers this week. New weight 469.2 which means I gained 2.0 pounds this week. I could feel bad about it, but, I had a lot working against me this week.

1. My dad got re-married this weekend.
2. My knee was acting up very badly this week and kept me from exercising all but two days this past week. Total of 2.31 miles and 63 minutes. (I will be doing more than that by Wednesday I guarantee it)
3. Overall lack of motivation. This too will be changed. I am planning on 6 days of walking this week.

My thoughts for this past week. It seems the harder I try the more my body works against me. I did over 10 miles the week before and my knee was angry and ready to make me stop. I walked on Monday and it was bad, painful and very much not a good experience. I decided to take a few days off of the exercising, good idea? Bad idea? Hard to say. It also came to my attention that my shoes needed to go. The good news is that on Sunday I finally got to get myself some new shoes. Tradehome Shoes in the Wausau Center Mall was where I got them. The salesman, I wish I could give you his name, was a real nice guy. I went in told him what I was looking at as far as requirements for my shoes. He hooked me up with Keen Shoes. So far so good. They are wide, my biggest problem in most cases is that my pinky toe will rub because I have such wide feet, these I have room to spare. Trust me these shoes are going to get a work out.

Next, my dad got married this weekend to a woman he has been with for several years (7 or 8). I am in a weird place as far as how I feel about them getting married. I am happy for my dad, he is the kind of guy who needs someone to be with. As far as his new spouse I am uncertain. I don't know what to think about her. She sometimes seems very happy and content with my father, other times she seems to be telling him, how much better she could do and how stupid my father is. So I have had a week of very uneasy feelings as well as one's that make me happy. My dad recently retired and is 65 years old. She is much younger than him and this is her 3rd or 4th marriage and my dad's 2nd. They kept it small and private. They had a small service outside at their home. After party at Kelly Club in Weston. Overall, I am happy for them both, I just hope it doesn't backfire on my dad.

So all these things together made for the not best week of eating habits. Especially on Friday/Saturday. Between the drinking and eating of a wedding I am sure I ate a lot more than I even think I did. I will bounce back.

I am going to aim for 12 miles this week. I am going to try and drop a minimum of 2 pounds this week. Walking at lunch on Monday/Tuesday/Wednesday and Friday. Thursday I am hoping Nikki and I will walk after game night at ChAdam. Saturday I plan on walking to work at ChAdam and Sunday will be our long Family walk day.

I also want to thank everyone of you that comment on these and those who have a great deal of insight. I want to thank Nikki for continuing to support me through all my trials and tribulations. I want to send out a big kudos to both of my girls, they have been walking with us and they are a great motivation for me to lose weight. I want to be there when they get married and give me Grandchildren. I want to be there when they love for the first time, when they have their hearts broken the first time. I want to be there as long as I can, I want them to think of me as the guy that will never go away. I want to be their point of contact for a celebration, for a talk, for a lecture, I want to be there.

Well, went long this week and I appreciate you all for reading my ramblings. Until next week...

Chad180

Frustration!

So frustration you are quickly becoming a good friend. I have one simple request...leave me the fuck alone. I have been doing everything right and the numbers are pissing me off. Last week I weighed in at 467.2 lbs, this week I weighed in at 467.2 lbs. I have been increasing my walking, since last Monday I have walked 10.7 miles and that equates to 4 1/4 hours of actually working out. Can someone tell me why the hell I am not losing weight. I have kept my caloric intake below 3,000 calories everyday. In fact, most days I barely make 2,000 calories.

Here is what frustrates me...everybody tells me that it is natural. That I should look at the way I look how my clothes fit better, how I feel better, etc. Honestly, I don't see it. I do have more energy, but, I don't feel better! My feet cramp constantly, the bottom of my feet feel like they are always on fire. I am chaffed and when it starts feeling better, I walk more and it kicks right back in. My knee has been popping on a regular basis. If I am doing everything right why am I stuck here? I mean I haven't eaten any fast food, I haven't been eating a whole lot that isn't vegetables and fruit.

Am I destined to be fat? Am I the guy who is supposed to be the guy that every thinks of as the fat guy? I honestly don't know what I am supposed to do anymore. I have been doing this since July 18 2011 and all told I haven't even lost 10 lbs. NO fast-food, very little junk food...what the fuck do I need to do?

Sorry friends, I don't mean to unload, but, sometimes, I just feel I need to. I know it will get better and I am sure eventually the weight will just "melt off" however, I am just in a bad mood after weigh in this morning.

Thanks for listening and please give me any advice or suggestions for any of the issues I have mentioned above that could help me out.

Chad 180

New Distance

So it is time for another post. Let's get the numbers done right away. Yesterday I weighed in at 467.2 lbs and that is up .4 from last week. I consider this a maintain. So let's look at what has happened since my last post.

Nothing real big as far as anything except for two things. First, on Sunday we went to a Wop party and pot luck. For those out there who don't know what wop is a quick overview. Frozen, cut up fruit, 4 gallons of fruit punch and of course bottles of clear fruity liquor. The sheer number of calories I took in on Sunday during the wop party between the wop itself and the food. So that is why I consider this a maintain week.

I have kept up on my walking and other than Friday (which I knew was not going to happen), I have walked at least a mile. Even though I felt like ass yesterday we (Myself, Nikki, the girls, Nikki's dad) walked 2.5 miles in about an hour yesterday.  This is good, it is the longest distance I have done to date. The weekend of November 5th, Nikki and I are working towards doing a 5k run/walk (I am focusing on the walk). That is just over 3 miles in a 5k. I want to get to the point of doing the 5k in about an hour which is just over 3 miles per hour. That is my goal and I think very obtainable. When I started this about two weeks ago I was walking a 32 minute mile. which is just about 2 miles per hour. The amount of increase in two weeks just amazes me. I am now doing a mile in about 20 minutes. So this helps me keep on keeping on.

I am noticing that though I haven't lost a ton of weight my clothes are fitting/hanging better. I personally feel better and want to exercise and feel kind of sluggish on those rare days that I miss. Things I don't like so much are that my knees hurt, that I am chaffed badly. I want to start listing the good and bad things as I go along to see how things change as I lose weight...so bear with me.

Finally, winter is approaching and I am looking for ideas/suggestions of exercises to do during the cold winter months that I hate. I don't like cold and refuse to exercise outside. SO thought and opinions would be nice in the comment section after this post.

Thanks for listening to me talk, I appreciate it world.

Chad 180

Well, Here we go...

I guess my story starts a while ago. I was a skinny kid, hyper-active. Life was great and I was a happy kid for the most part. Life sailed along until one day I opened my underwear and saw...A HAIR! It has all been down hill since then. I went from complaining that I would never break 150 pounds to OH MY GOD I weigh 300 pounds.

Then I turned 16 and that summer between my freshman year in high school and my sophomore year I became diabetic. Now, the one good thing about becoming diabetic (if there is a good thing) I lost weight! I lost weight easily and quickly. In one summer I went from 306 pounds to 180 pounds. I looked good, I felt good and life was great. My diabetes pretty much took care of themselves (or at least I did nothing to take care of them).

I love to eat, I love food. You know I find it funny that most people look at you when your fat and say things like; "you must love the sweets" or "Got a bit of a sweet tooth huh?" Honestly, not much of a sweets guy, I mean I like dessert, but, if given a choice between sweets and pasta, I'll take the pasta every time. I like high carb foods and it shows.

A few years later in 1996 I married my beautiful wife and life was even better. We were happy, we are happy. I would never trade being married to Nicole for anything. I was still sporting a weight of about 225. I looked good, but, I wasn't really healthy. My Diabetes was out of control, I had an A1C of 13+. I got high blood pressure (I told myself it was because I was diabetic and if I wasn't they would not have said it was high).

Then in 1999 we got pregnant with Emma. I say we, because she ate and I ate. We worked different shifts and I would eat when I should during the day (I worked 7 - 3) and I would eat with her (She worked 4 - Midnight). So I would eat 4 - 6 meals a day. She gained 50 pounds with Emma and so did I. Difference? She lost most of hers I didn't. I still wasn't worried I was under 300 pounds still moved well, still felt good.

In 2001 we got pregnant with Molly. Now this was really good...er bad. I would eat my meals, I would eat with her and I would eat while I fed Emma and Molly. I was always eating. I would try to trick myself and say I'm eating healthy as I was having (2) foot-long subs at Subway and they weren't the good ones. One might be a pizza sub and one a meatball sub. Full of oils and mayo and things I thought tasted good. So now I am 350 pounds and eating like the food supply was going to get away from me and knew I was too fat to catch it. I still felt good and Nicole told me I still looked good, so what is there to worry about right? My knees.

So many fights with myself and really what I call food addiction later and I am at the doctors and looking down at the scale...486.3 pounds. That is 2 overweight men. That is three healthy men and its only me! The doc has heard it all before and so has Nikki and honestly so have I. So, I started looking into gastric bypass. It scares me. I will do it if I have to, and am working along that path, but, I am bull headed and have decided to do this myself. So I did a bunch of research and figured out that I don't have to cut myself to 2000 calories a day to lose weight. I saw that for someone my size I could eat 4,120 calories a day to lose an approximate pound a week. So I questioned myself and said can we do it on 3000 calories a day? I said yes we can! That is where I set myself and have been working with it. Since I started on July 18 2011 I have lost 7.2 pounds. I will keep everyone up to date and let you know how I am doing, what I am feeling and all around, more than you probably want to know.

So, why Chad goes 180!? Well, there is a few things behind that title. 1. I am aiming to make a weight of 180 pounds. I want to be there in 2 years. I think it is possible. 2. I am turning my life around. You know making a 180. So there you go.

I am going to update this AT LEAST every Monday. I hope to use it more, but, you will be the second to know. Bye for now.


Chad 180